the warmth of rain

"to having been alone your whole life, and then having someone who finally, sincerely wants to be with you, someone who wants to know everything about you and will not stop at anything just to be with you. . . is the most surreal feeling ever. dont ever pass it up"

yes, it is surreal and the BEST feeling ever. I'm glad i didn't pass it up. I will keep it---hopefully for good.=)

In the spirit of Valentine

I don't believe in love at first sight but this is definitely a love at first read.


Love at First Sight
by Wislawa Szymborska

Both are convinced
that a sudden surge of emotion bound them together.
Beautiful is such a certainty,
but uncertainty is more beautiful.

Because they didn't know each other earlier, they suppose that
nothing was happening between them.
What of the streets, stairways and corridors
where they could have passed each other long ago?

I'd like to ask them
whether they remember-- perhaps in a revolving doorever being face to face?
an "excuse me" in a crowdor a voice "wrong number" in the receiver.
But I know their answer:
no, they don't remember.

They'd be greatly astonished
to learn that for a long time
chance had been playing with them.

Not yet wholly ready
to transform into fate for them
it approached them, then backed off,
stood in their way
and, suppressing a giggle,
jumped to the side.

There were signs, signals:
but what of it if they were illegible.
Perhaps three years ago,
or last Tuesday
did a certain leaflet fly
from shoulder to shoulder?
There was something lost and picked up.
Who knows but what it was a ball
in the bushes of childhood.

There were doorknobs and bells
on which earlier
touch piled on touch.
Bags beside each other in the luggage room.
Perhaps they had the same dream on a certain night,
suddenly erased after waking.

Every beginning
is but a continuation,
and the book of events
is never more than half open.
-translated by Walter Whipple

The Five Ball Challenge

Dear God,

I woke up this morning feeling the need to read day 14 of the purpose driven life. Ironically, it’s been almost 14 days since I received your wake-up call. Just when I thought that my life was getting back to normal, that unexpected call came. It was not the typical ring I get from people. It was not alarming either. It was just different. I picked up the phone and said hello. I felt that somebody was there listening to me. I uttered hello again hoping to hear a voice. But I just heard mine. I just heard my voice echoing through the room. I realized it was you calling me. You were calling me back. I just knew that after that call my life will never be the same again. It made me stopped for a while and watch my life unfold.

Life is said to be composed five balls. Each ball represents you work, family, friends, health and integrity. These balls are not like the usual game wherein you use one ball at a time. They are given to you all at the same time. You create your own balancing act and make sure they stay in place. They are not all the same of course. Work is like a bouncing ball. Once it falls on the ground it will always bounce back and it’s up to you catch it or not. The other balls are made of glass. Once it broken, consider it gone. I was probably too preoccupied on that bouncing ball. I was challenging myself to catch it every time it flies on air. I was clumsily using one hand carrying all four balls. Gravity was finally taking charge. All at the same time, they slipped off my hand in an instant. I automatically dropped to the ground and tried to save it. I thought it was too late. I thought I was about to witness the biggest natural disaster in the history of life. Until I saw very familiar hands helping me catch the balls. The hands that mastered the art of perfect timing. The similar hands who would tickle me when I was still a baby. The same hands that were on my shoulder when I was all alone crying in my room. Those were your hands, God. No amount thank you’s will be enough for being there at that time. Actually, for being there all the time. The experience left bruises in me. Eventually, they will turn into scars. The marks that will be remnants of yesterday, a reminder for today and tomorrow.

Amnesia

Write to express ache
Smile to overcome pain
Laugh to forget memories

Happily Never After

I was watching the Bambi video with my kids. Bambi was kissing the other deer. (I forgot the name of the other deer…but I’m sure it’s not Rudolph hehe) I heard Tim sighed and said “And they fall in love.” He was looking at the TV with sparkling eyes. I asked him, “Tim, what do you mean by fall in love.” Tim said “It’s when two people love each other and then they live together and they live happily ever after.

How simple it sounds….but doesn’t really happen all the time. More often than not two people who love each other doesn’t end up living together and ends with a happily ever after. Sometimes they just end. They just do.

Mga Huling

Tuldukan ang kasiyahan ng..
Huling ngiti
Huling yakap
Huling pagluha
Huling pag-uusap
Huling paalam ng huling sandali

Sunrays and Saturdays-Vertical Horizon

Open the window
Let the sunset in
If only for the last time
Let me see you smile again
I’ll take my records
You can have your books
I’m sorry I never read them
But it says so much about us
Always trying
To make love out of care
The perfect recipe
But something wasn’t there
Chorus:
Sunrays and saturdays
Perfect starry nights
Sweet dreams and moonbeams
And a love that’s warm and bright
Sunrays and saturdays
Friendship strong and true
Oceans of blue and a room with a view
To live the life you choose
You’ll write me letters
I’ll call you on the phone
A wire away from touching
And never quite alone
We’ll get to know ourselves again
And we’ll heal our hearts
It’s not that we’re bad together
We’re just better off apart
Always trying
To have one and one make two
And even though it never worked
I still feel love for you